Syahruddin Bin Esa
Energetic and Easy Going
Loves to Laugh and TALL
Born on 27 July 1992
ITE Tampines - Architecture
MSN - syahsnake@hotmail.com
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Wednesday, October 14, 2009 - Is it the end?
Today, met Zahriee and didn't went school. Halfway through the MRT journey, alighted at Paya Lebar and proceeded towards GrandLink. Played LAN for 1 hour 20min + then take the MRT back home. But while we were at Kallang, Zahriee said, "turon Kallang pe naek 985?". I was lazy at first but then, the train was full. So, go take 985 and slept the whole journey until Teck Whye's bus stop opposite the mini pool. Contacted Fadhil to come down and slack with us at Block Angin *inside terms*. Played the guitar, slack-slack, puff-puff then Zahriee ask us to send him home. So we send to block 5, then Fadhil wanted to go toilet at Chua Chu Kang CC, accompanied him.
Then on the way back to Jalan Teck Whye roughly still at Teck Whye Market area, I received a messsage. "Someone" wanted to meet. So, proceed back, change clothes, go chill with Khai and Fadhil awhile while waitting for "someone" for around half an hour then I proceed to meet "someone". Around 2 or 3 months losing contact, finally we met. Accompanied "someone" back home but before that, slack awhile first. I was totally down and almost cried. Returned back "someone's" belonging then a hug and proceed back home. Tears flew drip by drip at the bus stop while waitting for the bus. Thinking of "someone" and it won't stop. The bus came, boarded, seated at the back. While listening to music, the tears become a human waterfall. Covered my face so I bent, looking down so that nobody sees. Wipe all the tears dry and act normally.
Came back to slack with Khai and Fadhil. Played guitar. I learned 2 new songs. Accomplishment! At 11.15, reached home and wash up. Now I'm sitting, typing this post while my human waterfall keeps on flowing.
True love would destroy my life. True love would pierce a knife through my heart.
But it is one of the sweetest thing I can never avoid.
It may not be the sweetest when you feel hurt when you're loving.
Like how I'm going through right now, loving someone who doesn't ever care about my love.
I threw my Nova *friend's terms* ways away for her.
I changed myself to a different person, who loves one and only one girl.
I changed myself to a different person, who loves one and only one girl.
Is this what I should get from God to let me feel how deep it hurts?
Maybe it's a lesson taught for the girls I cheat in the past.
No doubt that I do meet girls, give girls hope to give me a chance for me to move on.
It always fails.
No matter how hard I try to give them my love, I still love her, only her.
How can this happen to me?!
I may be a funny person, easy-going, happy, laugh alot, jokes alot.
But I'm a total different person when it comes to serious relationships.
Yes, I do make mistakes, I'm not an angel.
We are humans, Tuhan memberi kita nafsu untuk menduga kita.
Is this fair God?! I should not be saying that but why?!
Make me a heartless person if you may, but don't make me love someone who doesn't love me at all anymore.
I'll try all my best to forget you.
Labels: Never fall in love for someone's who's not willing to give you his/her love.