Syahruddin Bin Esa
Energetic and Easy Going
Loves to Laugh and TALL
Born on 27 July 1992
ITE Tampines - Architecture
MSN - syahsnake@hotmail.com
Tagged Facebook
Saturday, November 21, 2009 - Boy konek
See my link? Got 1 girl name Enaa right?
Go to the blog, see the tagboard.
Ni ah jantan mepek..
The girlfriend add me at facebook, ask me to tag her blog at my tagboard.
Then I wanted to check is it the right person who ask my to tag.
So I posted at her wall, were u the one who ask me to tag at my blog?
She said yea. I replied alright. Suddenly a guy comment too "Abey asal, ade crite pe?"
Ni boy kenape? Aku ade nak flirt ngn pmpuan dier pe?
Prangai boy sia ni jantan.
Kalau tak suke pmpuan kau tag org laki, add laki pt facebook, puas hati srh dier delete.
Jangan nk uat laki laen tak uat hal ngn krg jady mangsa.
Boy, lu nak jmpe eh?
Ambik gmbr aku ke ape.. Nmpk aku, tegor eh boy. ;]
Go to the blog, see the tagboard.
Ni ah jantan mepek..
The girlfriend add me at facebook, ask me to tag her blog at my tagboard.
Then I wanted to check is it the right person who ask my to tag.
So I posted at her wall, were u the one who ask me to tag at my blog?
She said yea. I replied alright. Suddenly a guy comment too "Abey asal, ade crite pe?"
Ni boy kenape? Aku ade nak flirt ngn pmpuan dier pe?
Prangai boy sia ni jantan.
Kalau tak suke pmpuan kau tag org laki, add laki pt facebook, puas hati srh dier delete.
Jangan nk uat laki laen tak uat hal ngn krg jady mangsa.
Boy, lu nak jmpe eh?
Ambik gmbr aku ke ape.. Nmpk aku, tegor eh boy. ;]
Monday, November 16, 2009 - Monday..
I woke up later in the morning, at around 7am. Late for school! Reach school by 9am+ going 10am. Luckily teacher never scold. Damn, alot of problems. Study-study. Tomorrow got exam, woo! Nervous. ;P
Today reached home at 2pm to 3pm. At 5pm met "Delilah". ;P Slack-slack, decided to watch movie. Paranormal Activity. A lot of boring parts but after night #15, okay-okay laa. ;D "Delilah" was funny.. Griping, screaming and was scared. Cute! ;D
After the movie, slack outside of Lot 1 until 10pm and then went back home. ;]
I nothing else to say uh! ;D
Never put high hope on someone unless you're sure that both loves each other and would do anything to prove that they love you. I'm still waitting for mine. Hopes are there but sometimes I feel hurt. Be safe, act as if we're bestfriends. ;]
Sunday, November 15, 2009 - Sorry People.
Sorry people, I know I haven't been updated for a very long time. Just not in the mood to blog. Concentrating on my studies, fitness and myself.
My love life has past. 2 years and 4 months down the drain. Hardwork from from a simple crush into a long relationship that nobody expected us to last this long.
Finally, after 2 years, everyone has been saying whenever we both break up, "korang cnfrm patch alek nye by next week / next month." Now it's 100% gone. Nobody will say it anymore. Everyone wants me to move on. Thank you my friends for being there when I need someone to talk to. Now it's time for my studies and open my heart for my one and only. I'm not into a 50-50 relationship anymore. Break ups and patch ups. I want it to last very, very long..
Enough of talking about love. I'm getting sick of thinking of it. Feelings are still there but we must avoid. We can't clap with only one hand. It needs two. That how love works. 2 souls and 2 hearts, make their journey through the world of love.
So, Today, I went to the gym with Teck Yi and did some workout. Focusing on building up my body after 6 months or maybe more of sleeping, resting and no exercise because of this broken ankle. After all the workout, rest awhile in the changing room then head deeper into Yew Tee. Slack around, disturb bangla. ;D Took MRT and went home. ;D
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 - Finally
I'm lazy to blog! ;D
So, good news. Finally I'm able to leave her.
Thank GOD!
What's the use of caring someone who doesn't even fuck care about you. ;]
Loving someone heartless like her.
People may know her as cute, adorable and sweet. But she's worst than a minah rep + minah tudung!
Time to look forward. NO right, left and back..
Let her regret. ;]
It's my life, I know I'm different and I'm strong enough to do all I've done.
Opening my heart next month! ;D
True love never dies kay.
But it can be continued! ;D
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 - Is it the end?
Today, met Zahriee and didn't went school. Halfway through the MRT journey, alighted at Paya Lebar and proceeded towards GrandLink. Played LAN for 1 hour 20min + then take the MRT back home. But while we were at Kallang, Zahriee said, "turon Kallang pe naek 985?". I was lazy at first but then, the train was full. So, go take 985 and slept the whole journey until Teck Whye's bus stop opposite the mini pool. Contacted Fadhil to come down and slack with us at Block Angin *inside terms*. Played the guitar, slack-slack, puff-puff then Zahriee ask us to send him home. So we send to block 5, then Fadhil wanted to go toilet at Chua Chu Kang CC, accompanied him.
Then on the way back to Jalan Teck Whye roughly still at Teck Whye Market area, I received a messsage. "Someone" wanted to meet. So, proceed back, change clothes, go chill with Khai and Fadhil awhile while waitting for "someone" for around half an hour then I proceed to meet "someone". Around 2 or 3 months losing contact, finally we met. Accompanied "someone" back home but before that, slack awhile first. I was totally down and almost cried. Returned back "someone's" belonging then a hug and proceed back home. Tears flew drip by drip at the bus stop while waitting for the bus. Thinking of "someone" and it won't stop. The bus came, boarded, seated at the back. While listening to music, the tears become a human waterfall. Covered my face so I bent, looking down so that nobody sees. Wipe all the tears dry and act normally.
Came back to slack with Khai and Fadhil. Played guitar. I learned 2 new songs. Accomplishment! At 11.15, reached home and wash up. Now I'm sitting, typing this post while my human waterfall keeps on flowing.
True love would destroy my life. True love would pierce a knife through my heart.
But it is one of the sweetest thing I can never avoid.
It may not be the sweetest when you feel hurt when you're loving.
Like how I'm going through right now, loving someone who doesn't ever care about my love.
I threw my Nova *friend's terms* ways away for her.
I changed myself to a different person, who loves one and only one girl.
I changed myself to a different person, who loves one and only one girl.
Is this what I should get from God to let me feel how deep it hurts?
Maybe it's a lesson taught for the girls I cheat in the past.
No doubt that I do meet girls, give girls hope to give me a chance for me to move on.
It always fails.
No matter how hard I try to give them my love, I still love her, only her.
How can this happen to me?!
I may be a funny person, easy-going, happy, laugh alot, jokes alot.
But I'm a total different person when it comes to serious relationships.
Yes, I do make mistakes, I'm not an angel.
We are humans, Tuhan memberi kita nafsu untuk menduga kita.
Is this fair God?! I should not be saying that but why?!
Make me a heartless person if you may, but don't make me love someone who doesn't love me at all anymore.
I'll try all my best to forget you.
Labels: Never fall in love for someone's who's not willing to give you his/her love.
Monday, October 12, 2009 - Stressful.
Yesterday night, or rather just now morning, Its was a sad day for me and hurtful day for her.
Well, it's over. Lasted only for 1 day. I can't do it.
Am I doing anything good if I give false hope to someone? It's bad right?
1 hand clapping and the other is clenched with stress-ness.
I'm sorry to make you hurt, to make you cry.
Shouldn't have brought you into this position.
So it's over. I'm sorry.
Better now rather than I keep giving false hope.
Maybe hope for the best that soon 'she' will make me move on.
Well, it's over. Lasted only for 1 day. I can't do it.
Am I doing anything good if I give false hope to someone? It's bad right?
1 hand clapping and the other is clenched with stress-ness.
I'm sorry to make you hurt, to make you cry.
Shouldn't have brought you into this position.
So it's over. I'm sorry.
Better now rather than I keep giving false hope.
Maybe hope for the best that soon 'she' will make me move on.
Today, Woke up for school late, at 8 a.m. Haha!
Sorry if I paitaww some of you. ^.^
Didn't go to school! ^.^
Had stomach ache, do business then go play bowling.
Sorry if I paitaww some of you. ^.^
Didn't go to school! ^.^
Had stomach ache, do business then go play bowling.
2 straight games with Zahriee.
Then went to Bukit Gombak and play soccer.
Tripped, fall and bruises. - Ni la da lamer tak maen bola time hujan. ^.^
After that, went to Sinaran meet Khai, Fadhil and Aidil.
Slack, puff-puff and went home by 8 p.m.
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So back to my stressful love life.
2 years and 6 months of relationship with her.
All is shattered and broken.
But why a guy like me doesn't just leave and move on with life?
Why am I so arrogant?
Why should I even care when she doesn't?
Why am I still loving her when she has already loved someone else?
No matter who many girls interupt my love life and try to steal my love, why won't I stop loving her?!
Is there something you need to tell me, GOD?
Every single one of my friends advice me to move on.
Every single one of them tried their best to make me move on.
Every single one of them understands how deep my love for her is.
Everyone is hoping that I leave her and end my nightmare.
A reminder to her, don't regret when it's too late.
Telling everyone the truth, I'm trying all my best to love Ellyana.
Not even 2 years and 6 months with her but I can tell how much she loves me.
What about my 2 years 6 months relationship??
Only 1 year+ full of love.
The remainders are hatred, quarrels and fighting almost every single day.
Lastly to her, summaries.. Why am I still loving you until today while you can leave so easily?
I think I shall end here, I need a drink and rest.
Lesson learnt, Love and True Love are 2 different things. ^.^
Then went to Bukit Gombak and play soccer.
Tripped, fall and bruises. - Ni la da lamer tak maen bola time hujan. ^.^
After that, went to Sinaran meet Khai, Fadhil and Aidil.
Slack, puff-puff and went home by 8 p.m.
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So back to my stressful love life.
2 years and 6 months of relationship with her.
All is shattered and broken.
But why a guy like me doesn't just leave and move on with life?
Why am I so arrogant?
Why should I even care when she doesn't?
Why am I still loving her when she has already loved someone else?
No matter who many girls interupt my love life and try to steal my love, why won't I stop loving her?!
Is there something you need to tell me, GOD?
Every single one of my friends advice me to move on.
Every single one of them tried their best to make me move on.
Every single one of them understands how deep my love for her is.
Everyone is hoping that I leave her and end my nightmare.
A reminder to her, don't regret when it's too late.
Telling everyone the truth, I'm trying all my best to love Ellyana.
Not even 2 years and 6 months with her but I can tell how much she loves me.
What about my 2 years 6 months relationship??
Only 1 year+ full of love.
The remainders are hatred, quarrels and fighting almost every single day.
Lastly to her, summaries.. Why am I still loving you until today while you can leave so easily?
I think I shall end here, I need a drink and rest.
Lesson learnt, Love and True Love are 2 different things. ^.^
Labels: Trying my best, wish me luck.
Saturday, October 10, 2009 - It's time!
Bored, don't know what to do online.
On the phone with her.
Talk with her, confirm got topic!
So later it's either slack with my friends or go her house.
It's their studying time but I don't think she will be studying.
Typing all this while saying it out to her.
HAHA! Dier boleh ketawe lagy! HAHA!
Till here, later anything I'll update more!
Well, it's still hard for me about everything.
The love, care and jealousy is still there.
Hope you understand kay baby?
PS: I love you baby! ;D
The love, care and jealousy is still there.
Hope you understand kay baby?
PS: I love you baby! ;D